I have come to realise
that my sadness suits me best
and in that sense I surmise
that I have always been blessed.
When the tears well in my eyes
and a clamp captures my chest
still I cannot seem to cry
and it cannot be expressed.
So I escape to the saddest songs
to try and find release
but I've been hearing them too long
for their sound to bring me peace.
I know I cannot right my wrongs
but I can write them down at least
and when the feelings seem too strong
then maybe...hopefully they will cease.